Purpose

Dear World,

I have had a lot of time to myself as of late and in that time I have thought much. My thoughts have circled around purpose. As a 20 year old it is hard trying to find your purpose in life. There are so many choices and so many decisions to make about your future. Do you know what you want to be? Do you know the type of degree you want to get? Do you know what job you're looking for presently? Do you know enough people to get you hired is the real question. It seems to all boil down to who you know in the land of jobs. But there's so many questions you are peppered with in a days time that it gets confusing after a while.

If there's anybody like me out there then they understand that a 20 year old usually doesn't have a clue. I for one certainly don't. I have vague ideas and the dream of writing. Do I think my writing is going to be anymore than a hobby? No, so I need something else. But what should that be? I know my goal in life is to help people help themselves, but how do I do that? What career would give me accomplishment to my goal?

It is not easy being a young adult, it never has been. We are on the cusp of life itself, the cusp of success or failure and what's so heavy is the burden rests on us. We can either rise for success or fall to failure. The choice is entirely up to us. We are coming into our responsibilities and also still on the quest of finding ourselves. It's not an easy road to walk and any mistakes are usually condemned. But people twice our age make the same number of mistakes we do. We are learning to navigate the waters of life, trying to become who we're destined to be and I for one refuse to sink.

Trying to Move

Dear World,

Everything feels like it's at a standstill for some reason. I often find myself in moods like this. I guess it must be the plight of the creative mind. Especially when you are dedicating so much time to one series. So far I have sent the edits off again to be edited and hoping for good results. Some positive results that conclude with me having a book published within the span of this year. I'm so sick of waiting that I can't stand it anymore. It feels like nine-tenths of my life has been waiting and you know what? I'm sick of it!

If the word wait would fall off the face of the earth I would be happy. Do I have patience? Heck no! Is it a virtue? Probably, to some poor stupid soul, but not me. I haven't the patience for patience. I like action and results. I like the feeling of getting things accomplished and knowing it's in my power to accomplish my goals. There is no better feeling than meeting a goal you have set for yourself. Otherwise you're just wasting time in my opinion. Bust a move and get something done. Even if it seems like a chore, do it anyway. Believe me, it won't kill you.

So this is me being the usually restless self. Enjoy!

Being Thoughtful

Dear World,

Everyone has their trials and tribulations in life; they're needed to help a person grow spiritually and mentally. Nowadays with the fast pace of the world the trials come quicker and never seem to end. This is distressing in many ways. We used to go over to a friends house or call them up to talk it out. Now we seem to turn to social media for our outlet. Having an outlet is a very good thing because it releases that tension and frustration. Facebook is one of the main resources for clearing mental frustration. You get to connect with fellow people who will agree with you, but there's also people who will only add to the negativity. Those are the people that make using social media as an outlet a downfall. In times of trials you need people who are going to say encouraging things, not rude remarks or snarky comments. In my opinion that only adds to your negative emotions already. Instead, how about trying a positive approach.

Someone said something mean to your friend and she posted it on Facebook? Don't call the person a f-ing idiot. How about telling your friend that mean people say mean things, but you have to consider the source. Just try a more positive approach instead of being negative; being fuel to the fire. Hopefully you'll find that it uplifts your friend and doesn't make you look like a fool on social media for bashing someone.

Just a simple suggestion from a rather simple-minded view point.

Learning New Things

Dear World,

Sewing is becoming an obsession and I am loving it. Every night I watch videos on Youtube to learn new techniques for sewing. At first I wasn't sure how to close pillows. To start you turn the fabric inside out and sew the sides, but how do you sew the top closed? That was the question bothering me the most.

I found a video on Youtube that I can't even remember who did but it helped a lot. It taught me how to do a ladder stitch that closes a pillow without the stitches showing. It looks just like the sides in the end and it made me happy.

The thing I really want to learn how to do is quilt because I have an idea. This idea is to make a quilt for my first place I get with my boyfriend. My favorite symbol is the Celtic Tree of Life and that is the quilt I want to make. Or maybe a Doctor Who symbolism quilt because that's my favorite show. I'm still debating and still looking up videos to learn quilting techniques. So far I am finding out that it is hard without a loom or sewing machine. And also learned that basting looks like Christmas trees :)

We'll see how it goes...

New Hobby

Dear World,

I have found a new love in my life.....
Sewing!!

I can't believe I used to think sewing was boring. I figured old women sewed because they were old and didn't have anything better to do with their time. Guess I was young and didn't have a very good well rounded education. But anyway, my Aunt Anita, who passed away a few years ago from brain cancer, used to sew and all kinds of artsy fartsy stuff. Back then I thought she was really cool too and totally not old and she was cool. Man, do I miss her being down the road from us so I could make necklaces with her and learn how to needlepoint. It was so much fun! That was the beginning of my journey with a needle and then I put it down.

A few days ago I picked it back up because I wanted to make a bag for a set of cards I have. They are special to me and I wanted to protect them. With fabric I found in the garage I began sewing a bag for them. The first one I made a button hole to close it but my boyfriend suggested I try a drawstring for the second bag. I did and it turned out pretty good for my first attempt. Then I also found some batting in the garage (where you can find everything you ever need) and decided to make a pillow. I started with a small one first and then progressed to a big rectangle. So far in the past four days I have made two bags and six pillows. So you can say that I've been busy. Lol. I've even begun cutting out stars and sewing them onto them pillows I'm making. Most of my pillows are called dream pillows because they have a velcro closure on the back that allows you to put herbs in them to help you sleep at night. So far it has helped me a lot.

Oppression

Dear World,

I have a problem that can't be solved and won't be solved because people are people and therefore...yeah. Pretty much sums it up.

But anyway, the problem is religious beliefs. Christians in particular here. I have no problem with ANY religion so long as it doesn't harm anyone. But Christians, just let me harp on ya'll for a second. I don't get it. Always talking about being oppressed and that people don't want to hear your religion. Um hello, think people got it. It's the most widely accepted religion around, you can find a church on every corner with a member trying to bless you to boot, and there's even billboards on the side of the roads in the South promoting Christianity. So I don't really think you're that oppressed. You just like to get mad when someone doesn't agree with you. Demonizing them for their beliefs in the name of your God. Btw, that's not cool. Not even by the bible's standards. Just a little FYI.

I love all people, don't mind what religion you are, but do not be a bigoted idiot in the name of "religion". First of all you look stupid and second you're giving a bad rep to everyone else in your religion. Just some food for thought there.

Currently

Dear World,

I'm halfway dead right now because I'm trying to catch  a cold yet again and I just worked five hours straight in a restaurant, but that's okay. I shall survive. I have to.

I wanted to give an update on everything. Mainly wanted to talk about the books I am currently reading. I was suggested heavily by my boyfriend to read the Eragon series and therefore I have started it. He probably wouldn't have dropped the subject until I did anyway. Lol. So far I am liking it a lot though I haven't gotten past the part where the dragon hatches. I know, I know, so slow of me. I've also already seen the movie but I want to read the book. Give it an honest chance to surprise me. On my list is also Throne of Glass by Sarah J. Maas which is an amazing series already and I'm only on Chapter 6. Then there's A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray which is another great young adult fiction story. Though a bit on the childish side for my age group. I took a long time to get around to it. The girl in the story is 16 so she doesn't really relate to me anymore. Still an engaging story and good read though.

That's all the reading I'm doing at the moment and I hope you guys are enjoying great reads as well!!